I’ve been homeschooling now for a few years and I still feel like every year I need a refresher course on what it means to homeschool. Take, for example, this instance. Right now I am at my wit’s end and losing my patience, so I know that it is time to sit back, reflect, and question why I am doing this all in the first place. It’s getting towards the end of the year, and I know that is why I’m starting to lose patience. Not to mention that The Boy is becoming a surly teenager, which isn’t really helping. Being quarantined and not getting out of the house when we need to sure is putting our nerves on edge with each other. By now, I would have taken him to the zoo or the museum, just to get out of the house and away from our computers. So, with all these factors coming into play, I need to step back and wonder if it is all worth it.
My first fleeting thought is, no. The headaches, the arguments, that frustration… the planning. But then, I take a deep breath and I think about all of the things that I have been teaching him, all the new things that he (and I) has learned, and the great conversations that we have shared over some subject or another. I like teaching him. I enjoy planning (believe it or not) and I like watching those plans come to fruition and become something meaningful to him. There are more times than not that we have a good day and can end up playing video games together because we got everything done. We have freedom in our day and can do more. Like folding laundry. Life skill for him, chore for me. Or, normally, going to the zoo or the museum just because we feel like it.
When reflecting on what we are doing, I have to remind myself that there is a purpose to what we are doing and that there was a reason why we started this all in the first place. I have to remind myself that if he were doing public, he would be on an IEP because of his ADHD and his inability to concentrate for long periods of time. That he is too smart for his own good and the moment he gets bored, then things start to fall apart.
Sometimes, I just need to take a deep breath and go meditate somewhere simply because either he, or I, are having a bad day. Either way, I get reminded about what our main goal of homeschooling is and how I get to help my son learn.
Homeschooling isn’t for everyone. And now, with so many parents being at home teaching their students, I believe more and more people are realizing that. Some parents are begging for the world to return to “normal” so that they can ship their kids to school. Others are starting to realize that homeschooling may be a better option and that it may be time to pull their children out of public. Either way, it is important to take those breaks to reflect and ponder what is best for you child. Even if you feel like duct taping them to the wall half the time.